amandapocalypse asked: I feel you. I have been fighting for my person for about 4 years now. It's hard...

thanks girl<3 it’s very hard but i don’t want to give up you know… i just cared about him to much even if he forgot about me but thank you:)

I just can’t seem to stop writing these.. it’s because you pop in my mind before i lay down to sleep like my brain is like you love this boy your heart told me.. keep fighting.. i will never stop fighting… my world seems to crumble and then you show up in my mind telling me it’s okay… yes i sound ridiculous but sit there and listen:)tehe oh anyways you are supposed to be back here in about a month and then what happens.. say you know that i do love you.. are you going to do something about it or leave me here to wonder some more.. you know i really hope you do something cause i’m over sitting here wondering.. i’ve done enough of that for you already so… do something! You know what i think is funny.. in my last letter i talked about how you were passionate and loved something and you never gave up on it… and you got it.. now look at me i’m doing the same thing for you.. crazy thought huh? well… im trying to believe in me as much as i believe in you to keep fighting because i think you are worth it<3 I hope i’ll be seeing you.. and get to show you me…

Love, Me

I love him<3i hope there is still a way for us<33

i seriously wonder if you ever see these.. if you did you know the letter before this one i told you i loved you.. you probably think i am incredibly stupid.. i understand.. i’m not different than these other girls… i don’t know why i would think you would see i’m different… but i still hope you think i am… i’ve faced alot of sad and painful things throughout my life… lots of tears…i think they made me stronger.. i mean i do have nights where i listen to sad love songs and just cry. all girls do. if you meet one who doesn’t she is probably lying to you. but i can’t get you out of my head… i can’t i’ve tried everything i mean yes i don’t want you gone but.. i see pictures of that smile, or your dressed up looking handsome… i think if you got the chance to, you can be my Landen Carter.. the sweet boy who never forgets the girl and how he felt for her.. who knows you might have those qualities now and might be thinking about me too as i write this! we will never know.. love is special don’t forget or walk away from it.. i hope to one day hold your hand and look into those eyes of yours and see the real you, the boy who was passionate about something and never gave up<3

Love, Me

Mom: (looks at my picture with Damian) that’s a accomplishment after years and years of you in love with him begging for us to pay 250 so you can meet him at celtic thunder, you met him!

Me: Yup hes cute…

Mom: So what ever happened with the jonas brothers you were going to marry nick or are you divorced with him now and moved on to one direction to that one you like what’s his name?

Me: Niall

Mom: Ya you marrying him now or what? divorcing nick? Seriously if this was all real you would have been married like 100 times….

Me: I wouldn’t hop around mom? and as for nick… idk no matter what i feel it will always be nick… despite my love for damian or niall or whoever… nick is my nick…

i thought she was funny